Guess who's back? Back again... Nanananana.

I will attempt to pick it up again. I apologize for those who care and missed me- and if you don't care wtf are you doing here anyways? My life sort of fell apart/ imploded a few days after my last post. No, I don't want to talk about it but thanks for asking. If you didn't ask, you're an asshole.

Here is my thought for the day. People tell me all the time "Oh, I couldn't diet for that long. I Just LOVE food too much".
A. I don't diet.

B. Because I am not overweight, I don't love food? I would argue that a clean eater/ competitors love of food (or obsession over anyways) would rival anyone's. I have friends about to compete this weekend and I guarantee you that some of them obsess every time they drive by a fast food place. Dreaming of greasy burgers; almost driving off the road because they are so distracted by the thought of salty French fries. I've been there. I've stood in front of the ice cream freezer gazing longingly at all the choices for so long that someone actually asked if I needed help.
I've craved and listed the food I wanted to eat and post-show binged on food I don't even like.

The point to all this is that I don't hate food. The point is that I do love it too, but I love liking myself more. I love fueling my workouts with clean food. I love being accountable to myself and my plan, and I love looking in the mirror and feeling good about it. Don't get me wrong- I love to eat crap also and I do. As part of my plan, in reasonable amounts, and when necessary. I no longer give up social events to stay home because I am afraid I will be tempted or left out by cheat foods (btw this behaviour now seems completely insane but is a very accepted thought in some circles). Cheat foods are such a part of socialization. Food is part of every major celebration and I refuse to miss out on that. I have no issue enjoying rich delicious foods I love, and enjoying friends- or even eating a cheeseburger and a bottle of wine by myself with a movie after a long week. Yeah, I said a bottle Judgey-Judgerson.
Ultimately as always, my point is BALANCE. Life is about balance. Loving food and loving social times with friends and family.... and loving yourself. Indulging some of the time, and kicking ass and eating clean most of the time.

Now get off your computer and go work out.