I meant to blog about this on the weekend but got distracted. Distracted by food mostly.
If you follow me on Instagram, you would have seen the giant glass of wine I posted on Friday. Yes. Whole30 turned into Whole14. I was done. So I had two glasses of wine (BIG ass glasses) and some chicken wings. I don't feel bad. I made a conscious decision to quit.
I am not weak. I did not fail. Quitting is not always a negative thing.
For me, continuing would have gone bad. I could try to explain my complicated reasons, but I will break it down to control.
My need for control has ruled and dictated much of my life. Like many people, it served me in my profession and didn't in my relationships. When I found yoga, I found the beauty in letting go. When my husband shares lessons from AA, I learn more. I struggle all the time with falling into old patterns and will likely do so for the rest of my life....
Food control is a scary place for me. I have been down that road, and it's a dark one for me.
Obsessive thoughts about cinnamon buns and shit I don't even like; negative to the point of abusive self talk; binging and purging... it was a long time ago but apparently not long enough.
I generally eat well. I measure food and weigh to check portions- not all the time but frequently. I can go with or without the food scale and not freak. I can choose to eat a salad at a restaurant or choose to eat a burger and have limited guilt.
This Whole30 thinger brought back some memories of bad places. Some obsessive type thoughts... and it was only 14 days. I think it was the structure. The being told it WAS NOT ALLOWED. So far the only thing I have added into my daily meals is oats and one serving of rice but the thought patterns have changed immensely. Who knows why the brain works the way it does? All I know is, I was scared so I stopped.
Also I noticed zero improvement in pain levels. Perhaps because it was only 14 days who knows. I need to find another way.
I DID notice that less booze equals less water retention. Imagine (insert DUH you dumb shit meme here and big teenager type eye roll).
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Friday, January 16, 2015
Judgements, creeping and clothes
This topic has been in my brain brewing for a while.
Today it comes out for two reasons. 1- a creep at the gym stared at me. I don't mean glanced for a second too long, I mean STARED. Did the old up and down twice. Until he went back up and realized that I was staring back at him with resting bitch face. Fuck off.
2- I had an online argument with a muscle hater. A female fighter was referred to as a "man without a dick". Why I bothered interacting with this C U Next Tuesday I will never know. Sometimes I still get sucked in despite my best efforts to resist. What is that saying about arguing with an idiot?
So here we go.
The Beard and I had a very long disagreement this holiday about a dress I chose to wear. Ok the argument wasn't so much about the dress, but about the behavior. Perhaps I act differently when I wear a dress and heels, perhaps he was more sensitive to my normal drunken behavior when I am wearing a short dress and heels. And it was hella short. Regardless, it bothered him so I needed to address it. Which I did. My point in bringing this up at this point is that he said during our argument that I was asking for attention and no wonder men may act inappropriately if I was wearing a short and tight dress.
WHAT THE FUCK.
So if I wear a skirt and get raped- is it my fault? Am I asking for it? This was a huge issue for me. HUGE. That of course was not his point, but it created a conversation with myself in my head.
Ergo this blog post.
I wear tights almost every day. Wanna know why? It's not because I want strange men to look at my ass. It's not because I am cocky and think I am the hotness. It because A) they fit and B) I don't trip over the legs. Seriously. I have had gym incidents where my left foot has been caught in the right pant leg and I have fallen down. I have also fallen down stairs. I kid you not. I am that uncoordinated sometimes.
Also they have a high waist and hold all my stuff in.
I wear tights to the gym too. Does that mean gym creeper has the right to stare at me and make me uncomfortable? THIS is why female only gyms exist and that really pisses me off. Females feel so threatened that they are afraid to work out in a large room with men?!?!? What the actual fuck is that about.
I am confident enough that I stare back. With a very specific FUCK YOU look on my face. I have been in gyms for enough years that it's MY fucking safe place and I won't allow some creepy douchebag to make me feel weird about being there or wearing tight pants. Think I wore this for you asshole? If you continue to stand behind me while I do stiff legged deadllifts, I will fucking throat punch you.
I have altered my workouts and my workout times because I know I have to bend over and I won't do it at peak gym times. THAT pisses me off to no extent.
Back to the dress. I felt good in that dress. It was comfortable. It was cute and I felt good in it. So I wore it. Not for validation or pervy looks. Just like I wear tights. OR tank tops- you know what it's effing hot in there and I sweat like a dude. I do not nor have I ever worn just a sports bra. Its not THAT hot. Ever.
In my argument with online idiot, I asked why it's ok to say a muscled woman looks like a man without a dick, but to comment on a plus sized person is awful. BOTH are awful. That was my point. Who has the right to make someone else uncomfortable about how they look? Who the fuck do you think you are?
I don't need anyone but me to like how I look- and of course my husband to an extent. I know he would like it a bit better if I carried a little less muscle, but he still tells me I am beautiful. And means it.
I also don't need to hear that you hate how I look. Fuck you. Mind your goddamn business. Worry about yourself online bitch- I guarantee all that negativity spewing from your twat mouth comes from an unhappy person. Happy people just don't go around ripping other people to shreds. They just don't.
So strut it ladies. And gents. No matter what fucking size you are, no matter what you wear. No one has the right to make you feel uncomfortable. Strut that ass- big or small- and fuck 'em all.
Today it comes out for two reasons. 1- a creep at the gym stared at me. I don't mean glanced for a second too long, I mean STARED. Did the old up and down twice. Until he went back up and realized that I was staring back at him with resting bitch face. Fuck off.
2- I had an online argument with a muscle hater. A female fighter was referred to as a "man without a dick". Why I bothered interacting with this C U Next Tuesday I will never know. Sometimes I still get sucked in despite my best efforts to resist. What is that saying about arguing with an idiot?
So here we go.
The Beard and I had a very long disagreement this holiday about a dress I chose to wear. Ok the argument wasn't so much about the dress, but about the behavior. Perhaps I act differently when I wear a dress and heels, perhaps he was more sensitive to my normal drunken behavior when I am wearing a short dress and heels. And it was hella short. Regardless, it bothered him so I needed to address it. Which I did. My point in bringing this up at this point is that he said during our argument that I was asking for attention and no wonder men may act inappropriately if I was wearing a short and tight dress.
WHAT THE FUCK.
So if I wear a skirt and get raped- is it my fault? Am I asking for it? This was a huge issue for me. HUGE. That of course was not his point, but it created a conversation with myself in my head.
Ergo this blog post.
I wear tights almost every day. Wanna know why? It's not because I want strange men to look at my ass. It's not because I am cocky and think I am the hotness. It because A) they fit and B) I don't trip over the legs. Seriously. I have had gym incidents where my left foot has been caught in the right pant leg and I have fallen down. I have also fallen down stairs. I kid you not. I am that uncoordinated sometimes.
Also they have a high waist and hold all my stuff in.
I wear tights to the gym too. Does that mean gym creeper has the right to stare at me and make me uncomfortable? THIS is why female only gyms exist and that really pisses me off. Females feel so threatened that they are afraid to work out in a large room with men?!?!? What the actual fuck is that about.
I am confident enough that I stare back. With a very specific FUCK YOU look on my face. I have been in gyms for enough years that it's MY fucking safe place and I won't allow some creepy douchebag to make me feel weird about being there or wearing tight pants. Think I wore this for you asshole? If you continue to stand behind me while I do stiff legged deadllifts, I will fucking throat punch you.
I have altered my workouts and my workout times because I know I have to bend over and I won't do it at peak gym times. THAT pisses me off to no extent.
Back to the dress. I felt good in that dress. It was comfortable. It was cute and I felt good in it. So I wore it. Not for validation or pervy looks. Just like I wear tights. OR tank tops- you know what it's effing hot in there and I sweat like a dude. I do not nor have I ever worn just a sports bra. Its not THAT hot. Ever.
In my argument with online idiot, I asked why it's ok to say a muscled woman looks like a man without a dick, but to comment on a plus sized person is awful. BOTH are awful. That was my point. Who has the right to make someone else uncomfortable about how they look? Who the fuck do you think you are?
I don't need anyone but me to like how I look- and of course my husband to an extent. I know he would like it a bit better if I carried a little less muscle, but he still tells me I am beautiful. And means it.
I also don't need to hear that you hate how I look. Fuck you. Mind your goddamn business. Worry about yourself online bitch- I guarantee all that negativity spewing from your twat mouth comes from an unhappy person. Happy people just don't go around ripping other people to shreds. They just don't.
So strut it ladies. And gents. No matter what fucking size you are, no matter what you wear. No one has the right to make you feel uncomfortable. Strut that ass- big or small- and fuck 'em all.
Saturday, January 10, 2015
Update for Real. With less swears.
I said I would update too and other than my rant yesterday I haven't.
I feel like shit.
Of course I lost the bloat. My joints feel less puffy (hands and knees) but my back is an absolute mess. My entire pelvis is locked up- which I am sure my mom wished was the case when I was a teenager harhar- but it's bad.
So bad I actually couldn't work out this week. My husband sometimes asks me how I am, but he is a man and.... well really, do I need to say more? He was a little shocked at my taking days off the gym. Like that is what showed him that I am actually fucked. But then he asked me to carry a giant tv out to the truck so...
I also know I am not eating enough calories. I am blah. Lethargic, unmotivated and crabby. Yes I get this happens. I understand correlation doesn't equal causation and the fact that I am eating this way doesn't necessarily cause the issues. The back issue was existing- but it's worse. The other variables didn't change.
There was a time in my life when I could get enough calories. Clean, gluten free, super low to no carb, etc. That time is not now. I am really worried about the lack of calories as I preach everyday to keep the calories up. Blahblahblah.
I will go for another week. Then fuck it. I will start to intro things back in. This week my goal is to simply eat more of what I can.
Oh and for the second time in my life I cheated on a strict diet. I added a tsp of coconut sugar to my coffee everyday bc the headaches were devastating.
I feel like shit.
Of course I lost the bloat. My joints feel less puffy (hands and knees) but my back is an absolute mess. My entire pelvis is locked up- which I am sure my mom wished was the case when I was a teenager harhar- but it's bad.
So bad I actually couldn't work out this week. My husband sometimes asks me how I am, but he is a man and.... well really, do I need to say more? He was a little shocked at my taking days off the gym. Like that is what showed him that I am actually fucked. But then he asked me to carry a giant tv out to the truck so...
I also know I am not eating enough calories. I am blah. Lethargic, unmotivated and crabby. Yes I get this happens. I understand correlation doesn't equal causation and the fact that I am eating this way doesn't necessarily cause the issues. The back issue was existing- but it's worse. The other variables didn't change.
There was a time in my life when I could get enough calories. Clean, gluten free, super low to no carb, etc. That time is not now. I am really worried about the lack of calories as I preach everyday to keep the calories up. Blahblahblah.
I will go for another week. Then fuck it. I will start to intro things back in. This week my goal is to simply eat more of what I can.
Oh and for the second time in my life I cheated on a strict diet. I added a tsp of coconut sugar to my coffee everyday bc the headaches were devastating.
Monday, January 5, 2015
Elimination Diet
So I said I would blog about this, but now I don't have a lot to say.
I am in pain pretty much all the time. My back is wrecked. It hurts if I work out, it hurts if I don't. My knees are also a problem. They hurt when I squat, lunge, do stairs, sprints and the bike. Not until the next day though, so I convince myself it's fine. Physio didn't help. Dr didn't help. Next step is.... what?
It all gets way worse with crappy diet. Arthritis, fibromyalgia all that crappy stuff. I was told 4 years ago to cut back on coffee, alcohol, sugar and grains to manage pain. I decided to listen.... now. lol.
I REFUSE to give up coffee. I will learn to love it black. For allllll the shit I have given up, I will keep coffee and those idiots who tell me it's SOOOOOO much better for you can suck it. Suck it hard. I am keeping the coffee. I can't be drunk to deal with people, so I had better be caffienated.
I am following the Whole30 plan. Basically I get to eat meat, eggs, veg, nuts and some fruit. That is all. Oh and coconut oil and some weird shit called ghee (which after some research is just clarified butter. Amazon sells it and I am sure it costs more than my grocery store butter melted down and clarified. Seriously people).
My husband is on board. And scared. By on board I mean he understands and won't come home with ice cream- not that he is doing it too. That would take a heart attack or an alien invasion. That's cool- I am tough. Just because I choose to do something for my own health doesn't mean I expect those around me to change their lives. This is an important idea many competitors forget. The world doesn't stop turning because you don't eat bread at this time. So suck it the fuck up.
I don't care about losing weight. Would I like this belly bloat from rivers of wine over the holidays to disperse? Fuck yes. Am I doing this to "cleanse"? Fuck no. I'll just get one of those "It-WORKS" wraps for that.
Ok I couldn't even type that shit with a straight face. Wraps. Seriously. STFU. Pay me $40 and I'll wrap you in saran. Call me a coach too, give me hundreds of dollars and I will give you some specifcally sized tupperware and some shit quality protein powder too. I could be rich!!
Why am I doing it? Other than pain management, and the fact that I had to quit tobagganing with my kids the other day- which killed me, honestly made me want to cry right there on the hill- because I am trying to avoid meds. The avalanche of meds designed to mask the pain, never to address the actual issue. I still don't know what the goddamn issue is even after a year of appointments and exercises and xrays. Part of me thinks maybe living in a medicated haze would be easier.. then I remember my babies. And the fact that they need a mom who is really HERE. Not a mom on meds. Not a mom on her goddamn phone. A mom who is physically and mentally WITH them.
The hypocrisy is that they are in the other room playing on iPads and I type this. Yeah, I get it. Do as I say not as I do. No one likes the asshole who points out the irony.
Today was my first 100% on day. Kale/ apple and some other shit juice for breakfast with an egg cup. Yes I am waiting for my husband to yell at me for spending $7 on juice. I am hoping he waits until the 3rd day when I am really pissy.
I had some nuts, some spaghetti squash with bison and sauce... and a fricking lot of tea. It's also cold as fuck here, so that helps keep hydrated I guess.
And coffee of course. I did have flavored coffee, but I figure I can't cut out that too or I might die. Black caramel coffee it is. It doesn't have sugar or sweetener in it so suck it. Life is too short.
I weigh 153 lbs. Honestly less than I thought after the holidays. That's only 3lbs up and I ATE. And drank. And have no regrets. Other than the fact that I can't demo a cobra pose when teaching yoga. lol. Do as I say, not as I do ;)
Namaste. Have a super day. Stay warm.
I am in pain pretty much all the time. My back is wrecked. It hurts if I work out, it hurts if I don't. My knees are also a problem. They hurt when I squat, lunge, do stairs, sprints and the bike. Not until the next day though, so I convince myself it's fine. Physio didn't help. Dr didn't help. Next step is.... what?
It all gets way worse with crappy diet. Arthritis, fibromyalgia all that crappy stuff. I was told 4 years ago to cut back on coffee, alcohol, sugar and grains to manage pain. I decided to listen.... now. lol.
I REFUSE to give up coffee. I will learn to love it black. For allllll the shit I have given up, I will keep coffee and those idiots who tell me it's SOOOOOO much better for you can suck it. Suck it hard. I am keeping the coffee. I can't be drunk to deal with people, so I had better be caffienated.
I am following the Whole30 plan. Basically I get to eat meat, eggs, veg, nuts and some fruit. That is all. Oh and coconut oil and some weird shit called ghee (which after some research is just clarified butter. Amazon sells it and I am sure it costs more than my grocery store butter melted down and clarified. Seriously people).
My husband is on board. And scared. By on board I mean he understands and won't come home with ice cream- not that he is doing it too. That would take a heart attack or an alien invasion. That's cool- I am tough. Just because I choose to do something for my own health doesn't mean I expect those around me to change their lives. This is an important idea many competitors forget. The world doesn't stop turning because you don't eat bread at this time. So suck it the fuck up.
I don't care about losing weight. Would I like this belly bloat from rivers of wine over the holidays to disperse? Fuck yes. Am I doing this to "cleanse"? Fuck no. I'll just get one of those "It-WORKS" wraps for that.
Ok I couldn't even type that shit with a straight face. Wraps. Seriously. STFU. Pay me $40 and I'll wrap you in saran. Call me a coach too, give me hundreds of dollars and I will give you some specifcally sized tupperware and some shit quality protein powder too. I could be rich!!
Why am I doing it? Other than pain management, and the fact that I had to quit tobagganing with my kids the other day- which killed me, honestly made me want to cry right there on the hill- because I am trying to avoid meds. The avalanche of meds designed to mask the pain, never to address the actual issue. I still don't know what the goddamn issue is even after a year of appointments and exercises and xrays. Part of me thinks maybe living in a medicated haze would be easier.. then I remember my babies. And the fact that they need a mom who is really HERE. Not a mom on meds. Not a mom on her goddamn phone. A mom who is physically and mentally WITH them.
The hypocrisy is that they are in the other room playing on iPads and I type this. Yeah, I get it. Do as I say not as I do. No one likes the asshole who points out the irony.
Today was my first 100% on day. Kale/ apple and some other shit juice for breakfast with an egg cup. Yes I am waiting for my husband to yell at me for spending $7 on juice. I am hoping he waits until the 3rd day when I am really pissy.
I had some nuts, some spaghetti squash with bison and sauce... and a fricking lot of tea. It's also cold as fuck here, so that helps keep hydrated I guess.
And coffee of course. I did have flavored coffee, but I figure I can't cut out that too or I might die. Black caramel coffee it is. It doesn't have sugar or sweetener in it so suck it. Life is too short.
I weigh 153 lbs. Honestly less than I thought after the holidays. That's only 3lbs up and I ATE. And drank. And have no regrets. Other than the fact that I can't demo a cobra pose when teaching yoga. lol. Do as I say, not as I do ;)
Namaste. Have a super day. Stay warm.
Friday, December 19, 2014
Happy Christmas?
So mid rant today, I realized that I am simply trying to survive right now. When did the holiday become about survival for me? I love all things Christmas- those who have been at my house can attest to the amount of decorations I have up.... but this year it seems like I am just trying to get through without murdering anyone.
My children are adorable this year. They are SO EXCITED. We watch Christmas movies and PVR'd shows all day; they count down with the advent calendar (plural becuse they have multiple calendars of course eye roll); everytime they see lights on a house they freak out. I am not excited. I AM excited for them to get their presents but meh otherwise.
What happens when we get old? It just becomes more stuff to do. More on my list, more lists even. Oh shit I forgot to get something for this person or Godddamn it I don't have the right size gift bag for that present. More shit.
SIGH. The family dramas seem more prevalent every year. I asked some of my clients this morning and they agreed that playing peacemaker was just one more thing women had to do. I find that job leaks so much of my joy and I am not sure how to eliminate it.
Maybe I have been watching too many holiday specials and I am waiting for that magical moment when I am overwhelmed with the holiday spirit. In years past I have always been emotional and introspective but this year I feel like everyone can go F themselves and I am sick of their shit. Lol very festive.
I will consciously try to be better from today on. No more holiday rants... no more bitching about Purolator being late because it is what it is. No one will die if they don't get a card from us until the 30th. Santa will still come, the kids will still get to spend time with family. People will continue to ignore my wish to tone down the monetary value of presents for my kids- but if that is my greatest complaint this year, I am very fortunate. The simple fact that I get to choose to purchase less for my kids makes me a very lucky person. Not everyone has that choice.
SO Merry Christmas all 2 people who will read this. May you be intentional in all things; enjoy the simple pleasures (like gravy and loved ones but not gravy on loved ones), and may you have a quiet moment in which to sit in peace.
My children are adorable this year. They are SO EXCITED. We watch Christmas movies and PVR'd shows all day; they count down with the advent calendar (plural becuse they have multiple calendars of course eye roll); everytime they see lights on a house they freak out. I am not excited. I AM excited for them to get their presents but meh otherwise.
What happens when we get old? It just becomes more stuff to do. More on my list, more lists even. Oh shit I forgot to get something for this person or Godddamn it I don't have the right size gift bag for that present. More shit.
SIGH. The family dramas seem more prevalent every year. I asked some of my clients this morning and they agreed that playing peacemaker was just one more thing women had to do. I find that job leaks so much of my joy and I am not sure how to eliminate it.
Maybe I have been watching too many holiday specials and I am waiting for that magical moment when I am overwhelmed with the holiday spirit. In years past I have always been emotional and introspective but this year I feel like everyone can go F themselves and I am sick of their shit. Lol very festive.
I will consciously try to be better from today on. No more holiday rants... no more bitching about Purolator being late because it is what it is. No one will die if they don't get a card from us until the 30th. Santa will still come, the kids will still get to spend time with family. People will continue to ignore my wish to tone down the monetary value of presents for my kids- but if that is my greatest complaint this year, I am very fortunate. The simple fact that I get to choose to purchase less for my kids makes me a very lucky person. Not everyone has that choice.
SO Merry Christmas all 2 people who will read this. May you be intentional in all things; enjoy the simple pleasures (like gravy and loved ones but not gravy on loved ones), and may you have a quiet moment in which to sit in peace.
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Weak sauce
Today was the first weak-er in the gym day. I had to force myself to finish the workout and it was back which is usually my favorite. I will have to be more careful to plan smaller muscle groups on the second low carb day, and or cardio only. My first two llifts were good but I was tapped by the third. I decided a deload workout would be smarter anyways so I lowered the weights and upped the reps. I still got a great bicep pump in my last two curl exercises. All good.
Interesting. So far I haven't snapped at anyone, so that is good lol. I don't feel too bad either, just tired. But I am always tired mid afternoon so who knows what it is from.
Interesting. So far I haven't snapped at anyone, so that is good lol. I don't feel too bad either, just tired. But I am always tired mid afternoon so who knows what it is from.
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
carby carb carb carb
Hello friends. If there are any left....
I have decided to play around with Intermittent Fasting. Here is a link FYI- http://www.precisionnutrition.com/intermittent-fasting/summary
Before you freak, or alarm bells are raised, let me assure you that I will still consume a large amount of calories. The window in which to consume them will be smaller, and overall calorie consumption will be lower. No I am not starving myself.
If you read the link and still think it's dumb- then you are certainly entitled to your opinon. Now go stfu and keep it to yourself.
I like to play around with food to see what happens. I like trying keto, just hated how I felt on it. I am frankly bored as fuck after eating the same for years and years. My weight is steady and pretty difficult to move and I have zero desire to cut all carbs. This way I get low days, high days and see what happens. I am also really intruiged (sp?) by the fasted workouts and growth hormone released.
My feedback so far....
The first few days I struggled with dizziness while working out. I fasted from the night before until after workout (1030 am) which meant I ended eating at 8:30. While 16/ 8 hr fasted to eating ratio is recommended, it just wont work for me as most days I have to work out at 9.
I didn't experience any of the crazy food cravings or starvation reported by Berardi. I wasn't particulary hungry other than around 8 am (2 hours after wakeup) which passed.
I have been surprised by my workouts and strength. So far, strength has not suffered at all. I have arranged my high carby days around bigger body parts (legs, back) and kept the weights on lower days shorter. I haven't experienced wicked mood swings either- but maybe we should ask my husband bc maybe I'm just always a bitch.
I did weigh myself for the first time in 2 years and the number was much higher than I thought at 152 on the gym scale. I do feel leaner in the middle after the first week, although it's just water weight. Who cares- I'll take it. It may also be that week in my monthly where I am the sexiest.
That's all I have for now as the children call. I will keep recording feedback in case anyone gives a shit ;)
I have decided to play around with Intermittent Fasting. Here is a link FYI- http://www.precisionnutrition.com/intermittent-fasting/summary
Before you freak, or alarm bells are raised, let me assure you that I will still consume a large amount of calories. The window in which to consume them will be smaller, and overall calorie consumption will be lower. No I am not starving myself.
If you read the link and still think it's dumb- then you are certainly entitled to your opinon. Now go stfu and keep it to yourself.
I like to play around with food to see what happens. I like trying keto, just hated how I felt on it. I am frankly bored as fuck after eating the same for years and years. My weight is steady and pretty difficult to move and I have zero desire to cut all carbs. This way I get low days, high days and see what happens. I am also really intruiged (sp?) by the fasted workouts and growth hormone released.
My feedback so far....
The first few days I struggled with dizziness while working out. I fasted from the night before until after workout (1030 am) which meant I ended eating at 8:30. While 16/ 8 hr fasted to eating ratio is recommended, it just wont work for me as most days I have to work out at 9.
I didn't experience any of the crazy food cravings or starvation reported by Berardi. I wasn't particulary hungry other than around 8 am (2 hours after wakeup) which passed.
I have been surprised by my workouts and strength. So far, strength has not suffered at all. I have arranged my high carby days around bigger body parts (legs, back) and kept the weights on lower days shorter. I haven't experienced wicked mood swings either- but maybe we should ask my husband bc maybe I'm just always a bitch.
I did weigh myself for the first time in 2 years and the number was much higher than I thought at 152 on the gym scale. I do feel leaner in the middle after the first week, although it's just water weight. Who cares- I'll take it. It may also be that week in my monthly where I am the sexiest.
That's all I have for now as the children call. I will keep recording feedback in case anyone gives a shit ;)
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